Suddenly felt a little... i donno. Juz so hard to get the wrds out. I don think i'm ever good enough.. Feel as if its sort of an assessment i hv to take and go through. Sometimes the feeling aint good u noe.. God, i feel so helpless! And yes, i love surprises; bt i don appreciate the sudden dropping of bombshell saying tt Oh they r over at my place etc. Fine, i shall do that nxt time. I shall do it UR way. Since i wasnt treated with respect, then don expect me to do the same.
I shd hv juz gone for the diving trip with him, and then inform u only when i'm swimming with him. N ya, it slipped my mind. So? Angry? Upset? Well, i had my fair share of those emotions. It doesnt mean tt everytime i keep quiet means i don hv anyth to say or do i hv no opinions. Or that i condone certain behaviour.
Yeah, call me over-reacting. I don think i am. Period.
I shd also be devoid of ALL emotions. A fathomless abyss. Bt i pray for Strength too.
On a lighter note: Thks to X-cuts and KooL who console me or tried to console me yesterday.
